Positivity reeks here.

I am talking to a friend on YM now. Was telling her about my plan to get married and my troubles going down that road and she hers. I divulged my excitement of meeting my first nephew next year and she said:

"Wow. While everyone is on crisis, u got tons of things to look fwd to"

I was stunned. Got me thinking, "Huh, I DO have a lot of things to look forward to." While every prediction about 2009 I encountered gave news of grave situations, my life next year is looking promising for now. I have things to look forward and to be happy about. Even if I stumbled upon the pebbles on the road, I have a reason to look up and get my feet off the ground, for I have things waiting for me up front. My heart is lighter now, just thinking about this. This year has not been so good to me, that I notice I've turned into some pessimist, unhappy girl. That thing my friend said has lifted all regrets away and made me realize that my life will not be that bad after all. She gives me a reason to continue on hoping and be happy, for things ARE looking up for me.

I have a vacation next month to Langkawi; going to be away for 4 days with a big group of friends and the boyfriend. First ever vacation with him in 9 years we've been together, I must say. Don't know what to expect, but I'm determined to enjoy ourselves and have fun. Definitely starting the year with a bang!

The next month after, I'm going away to see and admire Angkor Wat with my favourite girls on earth. It's going to be so fun doing sightseeing together and talk craps while eating and camwhoring. These girls who I love to death can make me die in happiness, I tell you.

My birthday is in February on a Friday, so I am already planning to go out having fun in the night. It's very rare that I have a chance to really celebrate my birthday due to work commitments and all, so I'm looking forward to welcome the addition of another year to my being also with a bang!

And I will probably be wearing the ring in August, when my brother comes back with the baby. Oh, another joyous thing to be happy about!

I am so full of positivity right now, I can go through today with a secret smile in my heart, knowing that by tomorrow, my life is changing for the better.

English Mode: ON

Phew! That was a really angry post down there, huh?

Anyway, I'm feeling better today and now in my leisurely working state. I don't really have anything to rush, due to the minimal workload here in the office. And I'm still counting days until my vacation trip next month. Really can't wait!

Another anywayy, I got my first ever nephew on Christmas Day. A boy. But he's wayyy over the seas around the world in UK. Can only meet him when my brother comes back next year, hopefully for my wedding (gasp!). Can't really believe I'm getting married at last. Knowing me, it may or may not happen. Cross fingers, touch wood, make a wish on the well, whatever. But I now have a valid reason to buy those little cute shoes I've been admiring since forever. Don't really like kids, and I'm forever awkward when I'm thrown into the situation where there's a supposedly cute toddler around, and everybody goes "ooh" and gaga over. I always do not know what to do or say. I suspect the kid will really find it weird if I do those crazy, cute faces I see people do. I'm more comfortable with cats. But I think I'd like to have kids someday (not now!), as I don't ever want to be an old maid living with 30 cats in the house.

I'm annoyed with all these noises from the renovation work going on in my office now. Can't hear anything without asking everyone repeating what they're saying again and again. Can't even hear myself think. *takes a deep breath* But I'm not going to be angry today. I'm not.

I should think about New Year resolutions now. Although I'll be lying to myself, pretending to set up goals and attempting to fulfil it like 20088759937 other people who draw up their own resolutions. I mean, it takes a really strong person emotionally and mentally to take up the challenge. I'm not one of those people, but what the heck, I'll do it anyway and laugh at myself when the year ends. Oh, talking about new year, I dig the bubble wrap calendar that New Yorker guy invented. It satisfies the bubble popper persona inside us. I mean, everyone likes to pop air bubbles, right? I know I do. Just takes a bit of courage and patience not to pop everything on 1st Jan. Hehe, now that's fun!

OK, as usual, I'll come back when I have more to say.

p/s: I notice that I don't have much idea of writing anything nowadays. Especially those short notes, those supposed "poems" of mine. Oh crap. Memang hangat-hangat tahi ayam. Bosan-bosan pergi makan bayam. LAME.

Hari ini ku datang riang...NOT!

Hampir sebulan baru aku datang sini balik? Memanglah perangai batuk di tepi tangga, hangat-hangat tahi ayam segala. Tapi oklah kira, sekurang-kurangnya aku masih ingat aku ada blog ini. Tak siapa pun suruh kemaskini setiap hari. Aku bukannya tak ada kerja.

Ok, aku nak cakap ni. Aku tulis dalam bentuk poin (tak tahu patut ada huruf T ke tak kalau aku niat nak eja dalam Bahasa Melayu...ke Bahasa Malaysia? Dah tak dapat keep track), sebab suka:

1. Aku benci sebab banyak syarikat lain, termasuk segala klien aku cuti terus sampai cuti Tahun Baru, padahal aku cuti sehari, sehari secara rompong. Maksudnya mereka cuti dari Khamis sampailahhhh Ahad 4hb tu. Sebab cuti Krismas, Awal Muharram dan Tahun Baru dekat-dekat. Kan ke gila lama tu? Dah la aku ni kerja hari Sabtu. Memang rasa macam nak mencarut, tapi sebab aku tak biasa mencarut, aku rasa sajalah, tak buat pun. Tak tahu nak kata apa dah, malas gila jadi layankan saja. Semua kawan aku dah lama cakap aku ni "workaholic", satu-satunya perkataan dan jenis manusia yang paling aku benci. Sebab aku tak pernah rasa aku patut biarkan diri aku jadi salah seorang "workaholic". Dan sekarang aku tengah menulis benda ni di pejabat, which is absurd, sebab aku ada talian Internet di rumah.

2. Ini ada kaitan dengan Poin 1. Dah tahu kita tengah musim cuti, tak reti kah nak bagi gaji awal sedikit dari biasa? Hujung tahun ni wei. Jualan murah berlambak-lambak. Aku pulak hampir kering kontang. Orang lain punya bermegah sebab dapat gaji awal, siap bonus 2-3 bulan buat hati aku panas gila. Sebab aku di sini dibiarkan ternganga. Dah lah aku baru dapat tahu "orang atasan" di syarikat aku sudah dapat gajinya, siap ada yang dapat bonus 5 bulan. Memang nak buat aku marah la ni.

3. Maaf aku sedikit bitter. Memang tekanan perasaan habis. Tapi dengan sedikitnya hari cuti yang aku ada, aku telah gunakan Sabtu dan Ahad sepenuhnya untuk diri sendiri. Hari Sabtu, aku tonton filem dalam 3-4 berturut-turut. Puas hati aku. Hari Ahad, aku tidur sampai tengahari seperti biasa. Bangun makan, dan sambung tonton DVD lagi. Kemas rumah sikit-sikit, dan bermain-main dengan kucing.

4. Aku mahu layari Internet dan blog orang, tapi rasa bosan. Sebab aku tertekan dengan poin 1 dan 2.

5. Aku beli satu skirt secara online, sudah bayar semua, tapi masih belum sampai. Sedang tunggu lah ni. Entah bila.

6. Tak sabar mahu tunggu untuk bercuti. Tahun lepas aku tak dapat ke mana-mana, itulah sebab aku terlebih tertekan. Tahun depan bulan 1 mahu ke Langkawi, dan bulan 2 ke Siem Reap, melawat Angkor Wat. Ambik kau, berturut-turut. Puas hati aku.

7. Banyak dan selalu sangat tertekan, mungkin dah sampai masanya aku pergi ke tempat lain. Ini aku sudah cakap banyak kali, tapi memang tak buat. Aku tak tahu kenapa. Aku nak ke taknak? Pergilah, maksud aku. Orang sekeliling sudah tak larat dengar aku merungut. Tapi memang ini aku. All bark, no bite.

OK, aku dah kehabisan idea mahu cakap apa. Aku post ini dulu, kalau ada lagi, aku datang balik. Sekarang aku nak buang masa. Lagi 7 jam ke waktu pulang.